After about 10 months, I’m finally feeling some time to breathe. One more week left of being a “first year teacher!” What a journey. To be honest, the first 4-5 months are just a big blur, but from what I can remember, those months were good too. I made it.
And wow. God is good. God is always, always good. Even if this year would have brought heartache and misery, God would still have been good. I’ve been blessed more than I deserve, and I thank God for his good gifts this year. To actually pinpoint one or two lessons I’ve learned throughout these ten months has proven much too difficult. So, therefore, I’ll take the typical millennial approach and write a blog about my experiences. Real original, I know.
Lesson 1: You can’t do it all.
Trust me on this. I think I tried. (Part of the reason I don’t remember the first 4-5 months, probably.) When I first started teaching, I woke up at 5, tried to do my devotions, taught all day, coached volleyball in the afternoon, went to the gym, ate a little, then went to sleep, and repeated that day in and day out. When I think back on those months, I get a little overwhelmed at myself. I remember wondering how teachers actually had lives – like husbands, kids, actual prepared meals. It was an anomaly to me. Well, actually, it still is. But the Lord has shown me that I don’t have to do it all. Seek FIRST his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. My happiest days this year were days that I spent in close communication with Jesus. Not when I had a souped-up lesson plan or a pinterest-y project for the kids. I was happiest when I sought the Lord the most. I hope I’ll always remember that.
Lesson 2: I am a Church Member.
This year has brought new changes. New church, new ministry, new home. With that said, I have learned, and am still learning, how to be a young, single church member. This was my first true experience of church without my family. Reading Thom Rainer’s book “I am Church Member” really brought to my attention the need for Biblical church members, single or not. Church shouldn’t be about my preferences and desires. Church shouldn’t be about ME at all. Biblical church membership is not what the church can do for me, but what I can do for the church. To be honest, sometimes after an exhausting day or week, going to church doesn’t always sound the most appealing. But, just last week, I looked around at everyone socializing before church, and just got really thankful for the body of Christ. Church is a pretty cool thing. I think I’ll keep going.
Lesson 3: Everyone Needs Accountability.
All sin is based on rebellion and disobedience. End of story. Sin is looking to temporal rather than eternal pleasures. God is a good God and desires good things for his children. I’m still trying to get that through my head. God is a good God. God is a good God. If it doesn’t have God in it, I shouldn’t want it. Since this year is the first year on my own, I’ve seen how I can get numb to sin. I can overlook things as if they aren’t rebellious or anti-God. But all sin is. Maybe growing up in a pastor’s family, I’ve trained my mind to think that if I sin, I just have to try harder next time. Never tell anyone; just move forward. This year I’ve learned that won’t solve the root issue. All sin is a really big deal. It shouldn’t be glossed over. I praise God for the friends placed in my life for this season that sharpen me and keep me accountable. It’s shown me, for probably the first time in my life, that I’m not alone in my struggles and I have a God is willing to meet me wherever I am. Everyone needs accountability. Even the grownups.
For the sake of time, here are a few other vital lessons I’ve learned this year:
4. Sleeping past your alarm when you actually have a real job is the worst feeling ever.
5. If you don’t wash the dishes, they don’t get washed.
6. Bills don’t pay themselves.
7. Petting a puppy is something I totally took advantage of before.
8. You have to actually plan meals if you want to cook.
9. Everything costs money.
10. I need 8 hours of sleep every night to function properly.
11. Don’t dwell on the fact that your states away from any sort of family member. It gets overwhelming.
12. Kids are some of the funniest, most creative people on the planet.
13. A child’s hug can touch hearts.
14. Never start a netflix show unless you’re okay with being unproductive for the next few weeks.
15. Calling my mom always makes me feel a little better.
16. Northern Florida is actually the deep south. Who knew.
17. Tallahassee has introduced me to Krispy Kremes and Tropical Smoothies. That is all.
18. Dolphins are my new favorite animal.
19. Grocery shopping is overrated. Chick-Fil-A is better and, since I’m a Christian, I always have a coupon.
20. Pray about everything.